Monday, August 31, 2015

True Beauty (A Paper)


Beauty
Noun
  1. a combination of qualities, such as shape, color, or form, that pleases the aesthetic senses, especially the sight.
"I was struck by her beauty"
    2. a combination of qualities that pleases the intellect or moral sense.
          

Beautiful

Adjective

beautiful (comparative more beautiful, superlative most beautiful)
  1. Attractive and possessing charm.  [quotations ▼]
  2. Anyone who has ever met her thought she was absolutely beautiful.
  3. There's a beautiful lake by the town.
  4. (of the weather) Pleasant; clear.
  5. It's beautiful outside, let's go for a walk.
  6. Well executed.
  7. The skater performed a beautiful axel.
I agree the fullest to the definition of beauty mixed with beautiful. A combination of qualities that pleases the senses that is attractive and pleasant.
The word beauty or beautiful was originally used in Middle English in the 1400s. There are earlier time it was used in the scriptures, Bible and Book of Mormon alike, each of which denotes the definition of lovely to see and having a purpose behind it.

“How beautiful upon the mountains are the feet of him that bringeth good tidings, that publisheth peace; that bringeth good tidings of good, that publisheth salvation; that saith unto Zion, Thy God reigneth!” Isaiah 52:7
Beauty from preaching the gospel.

“30 And now it came to pass that all this was done in Mormon, yea, by the waters of Mormon, in the forest that was near the waters of Mormon; yea, the place of Mormon, the waters of Mormon, the forest of Mormon, how beautiful are they to the eyes of them who there came to the knowledge of their Redeemer; yea, and how blessed are they, for they shall sing to his praise forever.”  Mosiah 18:30
The beautiful scenery and the place where the baptism of thousands occurred.

“VIRTUE is like a rich stone, best plain set; and surely virtue is best, in a body that is comely, though not of delicate features; and that hath rather dignity of presence, than beauty of aspect.”(The Essays, By: Sir Francis Bacon)

Beauty today and over the last hundred years has become twisted, mutilated from the original meaning. Today people equate beauty with sexy. Being beautiful means to be “sexy.” These two things have very very small similarities but they are NOT at all the same.

Sexy
Adjective
1905, from sex (n.) + -y (2). Originally "engrossed in sex;" sense of "sexually attractive" is 1923, first in reference to Valentino. An earlier word in this sense was sexful(1898). Related: Sexier; sexiest.

adjective, sexier, sexiest.
1. concerned predominantly or excessively with sex; risqué:
a sexy novel.
2. sexually interesting or exciting; radiating sexuality:
One of Satan’s nicknames in the scriptures is the father of all lies. He will have men “call evil good, and good evil, that put darkness for light, and light for darkness, that put bitter for sweet, and sweet for bitter!” If we mix up the truth or make it seem like truth, then men and women will believe it. Especially if it feels good, even if it’s momentarily.  So if we begin to believe sexy and beautiful are close to the same thing, then we lose sight of what is actually good.

There is a long running issue with women in this generation regarding how they want to be perceived. You want to be cared for. You want to be respected. You want attention. You want to be thought “sexy.” You want to be called “beautiful.” You want to be loved. In reality you’ve been trained to misunderstand all of that. You’ve been watching T.V. for years, magazines before that, movies, music, music videos, and swear it doesn’t affect you. But then when you’re a little girl and you have a nice dress on what do we say? “Awww, you look so pretty!” As a teen “Awww, you look so beautiful!” As a young adult “Awww, you look so sexy!” Perhaps you’ve been compared to a celebrity. The idea of outward appearance is the inner sense of beauty and sexy. What you look like is more important than what you are, WHO you are. You have seen people called sexy, maybe even your man has come in contact or been into porn. That idea is sexy. No we believe sexy is important. Sexy gives “value.” Sexy makes us feel right because we have been told.
Pornorgraphy is a multi billion dollar industry. Yes, billion! Now, this might be personal opinion, but I think the devil’s whole goal for the world, as far as porn is concerned, is not for everyone to become addicts. His main goal is to desensitize. Desensitize the good. When a God fearing man is strong, faithful, and true to what he believes in there is not much that will shake him. This man has a testimony of the gospel of Jesus Christ. This man loves his family and his wife more than anything in the world. A family member passes away and he knows that family member has “returned back to that Father who gave him life.” Their house burns down and he says “Lord, thy will be done,” and buys a new condo where his family begins their new life in a new place. These big trials are not that big to him because he has peace in the Lord and know they are just that, trials. Now imagine this same man is at home in his office on the computer and there is a little pop up add about the newest Jennifer Lopez song. He always liked J Lo so he types it in on Google and the video pops up on Vevo. The song is all about her butt, literally called Booty, and it shows her singing, dancing suggestively, and not wearing much. He feels like this could be wrong to watch because it’s not his wife, but hey it’s “just” a video right? Wrong. It is a small step. One little slip. Not huge but he has a little seed planted that accepts music videos. He begins to watch more of JLo, then he thinks of another pop star he always thought looked good. Then another. Then his curiosity peaks and he wonders if he can see more of them, meaning more of their bodies. They show that much in a music video maybe they show even more on other sites? Now the little slip is turning into a habit. He likes the feelings and begins pleasing himself. Now the pictures and music videos aren’t enough, he seeks out the real thing. 3 hours later he is still in his office, feeling ashamed of himself. He doesn’t tell his wife, he wants to talk to her but he can’t, so he continues to indulge to numb his sadness, his self isolation. He has a choice, but slowly and surely he is giving away that choice because this is becoming an addiction. A way to numb the pain. But it never satisfies. This is a scary but real example of something that happens daily in our world. This could be a husband, more than likely it could be a young man no more than 10 years old. It’s scary to think but it all started with those little thoughts. That ONE song. That ONE video. That ONE rated R movie. It could only take one to become desensitized and numb.

The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing.

He who passively accepts evil is as much involved in it as he who helps to perpetrate it. He who accepts evil without protesting against it is really cooperating with it.
History will have to record that the greatest tragedy of this period of social transition was not the strident clamor of the bad people, but the appalling silence of the good people.
Every man must decide whether he will walk in the light of creative altruism or in the darkness of destructive selfishness.
~ Martin Luther King Jr.
Porn would have men do nothing. And doing nothing allows evil to win. It’s much more simple than making men do bad. It’s having them think they are doing good while they are in fact doing bad. Having a warped perception you drag others down with you. This idea of perception regarding women was discussed earlier but will continue further. The devil has many goals for women but a major one would be to insure that they have a misplaced identity. Or to have them lack identity. Many parents (maybe mostly Christian while some with moral values otherwise might also) would say before a teenager left the house “Remember who you are son/daughter.” This is one of the key elements of perception and self appraisal, knowing who you are. What helps us know who we are? Some of them may depend on what follows:
  • Parents: How many? Ethnicity? Style? Discipline? Work?
  • Culture: Home life? Ethnic beliefs? Communication skills? Atittude?
  • Belief: Religion? Strengths? Activity?
  • Success/Failure: How it is handled? Compassion? Anger? Teachings?
  • Happiness: How is it determined?
I have never been a woman nor ever will be but I have had plenty of interview time one-on-one with them and these factors always affect the future feelings in relationships and especially their perspective. You only know what you know, right? If a girl only knows from her relationships with guys in the past who love them because they have an amazing body, then they feel great knowing guys “love” their body. The idea of beautiful begins to merge with sexy. She then learns that the man she was with indulges in pornography often. She equates the look to feel that love. But now she is constantly comparing herself. Comparison is good when you are looking at camping gear or buying a car, but it is deadly when you begin comparing people.

Porn is disgusting, it is filth. It’s purpose is to destroy the family, the most important building block on this earth. Guys watch it, some women too. Women want to be like it because they believe it gives them value, and some men are looking for what they think is the “perfect” sexy. They believe it will help their man “love” them more. This couldn’t be further than the truth.

In the beginning God created everything, and then stated “and it was good.” I believe this is the original statement of beauty. I’m sure it looked good from the cosmos, gorgeous from what He created, everything in it’s rightful place, but He said good. It looked fantastic and was good for it’s purpose, it had purpose to house the human family and let us have life, grow, progress, become like the creator who is good.
“there is none good but one, that is, God.”
Good is having purpose

I believe the best version of beauty can be used when describing one of the most well known women in the world. And it’s not Beyonce.

13 And it came to pass that I looked and beheld the great city of Jerusalem, and also other cities. And I beheld the city of Nazareth; and in the city of Nazareth I beheld a virgin, and she was exceedingly fair and white.
14 And it came to pass that I saw the heavens open; and an angel came down and stood before me; and he said unto me: Nephi, what beholdest thou?
15 And I said unto him: A virgin, most beautiful and fair above all other virgins.”  1 Nephi 11:15

The virgin Mary was considered most beautiful and fair. In that language fair meant pleasing to the eye, so why would they say beautiful as well? Perhaps because it means the same as we have been discussing. This woman was a chosen vessel because of her unwavering faith and virtue. She was prepared and willing to do what the Lord asked of her. May we all have the faith and willingness to obey what they Lord requires of us as Mary did. May we be beautiful in the eyes of the Lord. May we know that love for Heavenly Father and His love for us.

Love is what we all seek, we desire it more than anything, try to find it in anyway possible. They say the necessities of life are food, shelter, water, and air. The necessities for good life are those and added the original and most important: Love. When all you know is that fleeting feeling of sexual desire, the adrenaline of that drug taken, the fun one might think they have with their friends, the kings, world leaders, CEOs, any search for power or connection is based on the original need. Love.
7Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loveth is born of God, and knoweth God. 8He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love. 9In this was manifested the love of God toward us, because that God sent his only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through him. 10Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins.11Beloved, if God so loved us, we ought also to love one another. 12No man hath seen God at any time. If we love one another, God dwelleth in us, and his love is perfected in us. 13Hereby know we that we dwell in him, and he in us, because he hath given us of his Spirit. 14And we have seen and do testify that the Father sent the Son to be the Saviour of the world.” 1 John 4:7-14

God is love. Love is from where we came and we seek it more than anything. Searching for it from earthly sources only brings momentary pleasure, then it usually ends in sorrow. The love of our Heavenly Father is beautiful. It gives us purpose. It gives us the strength to move forward. It makes us feel worthwhile. It reminds us of who we are. He will hold us when no one else will. He will show us how beautiful we are because we are His children.

I know that God is our Heavenly Father. I know His love because I have been comforted by it. I know that living by His word will bring us the happiness we seek . I know that He has created us all beautifully and that we have a mission to fulfill on His behalf, because He always keeps His promises. I know He loves us and knows us each, personally.
“Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:”
In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

Friday, August 28, 2015

Keep Rowing


At times life seems like paddling upstream
In a kayak solo with no team
You have to have faith to keep going
Because you begin to move backward when you stop rowing
So keep rowing
No slowing!
Because at that moment of spiritual muscle failure
You'll find that kayak propelled by the true sailor
The Savior
He's been rowing since he created this river
He's been rowing since before you knew He would deliver
So when you think life is like paddling upstream
Just remember who's on your team
You have to have faith to keep going
Move forward, not backward soldier keep rowing!
No slowing!
Courage, the only one's fit to see
Courage and on to the victory!


Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Addict is as Addict Does


"Addiction can be beaten. Just because you've done something doesn't mean you have to be something. Break out that box."     - Eroc


Addict is as addict does
Since that's not who I is
Don't hate me for who I was
How do you distinguish between striving and hypocrisy?
Just because they don't live up to who they wanna be
Would you consider them an enemy or a Pharisee?
Can you hate someone because of their proclivity?
Not everyone has confronted their demons
I have but now it's like my spirits committed treason 
On my body and my mind 
Because they were both numb all of the time
And because I didn't hurt no one or commit any crime 
I would repeat the same sins because it was a habit of mine
I used not because I was abused
But my father misused his gift to reproduce
I mean I'm glad I'm here but he ain't here and wasn't never near
So moms tried to keep me from shedding tears or having fears 

But the pent up anger and lonely only made me seek escape and I didn't wanna know me
Until my "best friend" showed me a way to take the pain away
He introduced me to porn and from there a new pseudo life was born
In a trance like children of the corn having innocence torn but in the moment the fear would dissipate so would the lonely so would the hate.
I didn't do it because I was a perv but because I had no nerve
I was afraid of the dark and if I heard a sound down the hall
Id go under the covers and pull out the magazine from the mall
Id forget the monster in the closet 
Id forget my father wasn't a happy topic
Id sleep easy feeling close to home
But the more I did the more the disease made my dome a home
15 years later and I'm trying to kick out these soul haters
These thousands of pix and movies never in theaters
I finally realized I couldn't kick it like quest
That maybe this addiction was my greatest test
Went to a therapist because I needed serious help
Went to a 12 step because I couldn't do it by myself
Months clean and it still haunts my dreams
But when I'm awake I hit the book, pray, and read
It's getting easier and my mind is slowly becoming mine again
The Lord on my side I turn right and I will win
I met the perfect girl not like any other in the world
I never want to see another just me and her against the world
But see the devil knew I was at my happiest
He had to remind me what it was like to be the crappiest 
Caught up in pointless social media pops up a picture of Kim K
Mind reverts to autopilot the old me is now my sensei
But the new me is crying screaming begging please don't make us die again!
It's time to step up we need a dyer win!
I fight for a good long while and try to force a smile

Nope . . . 
Back down that slippery slope . . .
The most disgusting feeling,
Why did this life used to be so appealing?
In tears I'm at her front door, I ask to speak to her alone
She says "what for?"
I spill my guts on wounded knee
Confession sucks but worse when I'm wounding she
She who loves me more than anything I've known yet
Cuss word, it's over, I've blown it
She's taken aback, has tears in her eyes and doesn't know what to say back
Do I retract? Lay a hand on you and smack? Attack? What am I supposed to do?
I guess that's the real question and the next even more interesting 
Can you love someone enough
To know that they will do everything tin their power to be enough 
To break the spell
To overcome the world
To come back, a bat outta hell
I love you, my one and only girl
Would you really believe it?
Because you can't always see it
I'm human and I will make mistakes
Those mistakes constantly changing shapes 
But I will wake everyday and fall to my knees to pray
I want to be only with her
So I will stay in my scriptures 
I'm not alone in this war
Verses myself and the whores
And though I don't know the score
I'll never be the underdog anymore

She didn't leave, and I put in the work all day everyday
I ain't perfect. I've slipped and started to look but catch myself and look away
You still think that's too much
And truthfully you're right
But 200 days ago I wouldn't last the night
Now my mind is truly becoming my own
If something tries to get in, this is a grimy free zone
Soon as it comes in it gets blasted out
Every week with my soldiers Choppin up and mashin it out
I know I'm not perfect and I'm honored and blessed that you married me
This experience has taught me to trust in the Lord because in His strength nothing will again bury me 
Just because I see something 
Don't mean I need something
Just because the TV waved something
Don't mean I crave something
I have weapons now prayers, quotes and songs
If there's ever a bad situation I just gotta turn one on
Ain't nothing in my mind that I don't allow to be there
There's a sign on my agency saying SATAN BEWARE
If he comes at me when I'm ready for bed
"Just a reminder, my Lord has power to crush thy head."
It's amazing the leaps and strides I've grown
And I can still say to this day I didn't do it on my own 
I'm no longer afraid of being alone
I live with a lovely wife in my lovely home
Yet she still struggles with the fact that I'm an addict
Nowadays, it can makes things dramatic
Just know this
I put you to my heart in a closed fist
Two hits then cross em to the shoulders
Two more bumps for moving boulders
Then bring em up to my head because you're always on my mind
Then flex on em because homie it's hammer time
Like Alex the Lion loves his steak
I love you with all my heart, might, mind, and strength

I'm changing, I'm in recovery
They say relapses happen but that's not what it's gonna be
I've got too much in front of me
With you loving me and bearing a daughter and a few sons to me
If the thought to return to that old me arises
I remember that thru the dark a new sun rises
Though I might see some things I'm not who I was
Addict is as addict does
Since that's not who I is
Then don't hate me for who I was

I will only put one other above you

Don't worry, he's the one that allowed me to love you