Afraid of the Dark (Part 3)

Greeted with smiles yet my heart beating in my throat

I tried to say hello but I froze I choked

So the meeting began, and I hadn’t yet ran

Feeling like a child who just needed someone to hold my hand

Then the sharing portion started aint no way I’d go

A man raised his hand and said “Hi my names Michael.

I’m very happy to be here because I’m an addict.

For over 20 years i’ve been at it,

I thought at first it was merely a personal problem

10 years later I felt like I was raised in Sodom.

Surrounded by fire

Falling from heaven

Resounded by liars

Falling from heaven

But the flames wouldn’t hurt the skin

You see I was perpetually burning within

Melting from sin, melting my kin

I got introduced to it by a friend

And didn’t think much on it because I was only 10

Little did I know this was the beginning of the end

Little did I know that it was the only time again, again

and again

I closed my eyes and it was 10 years later

Thought I was in love but was a hater

I wasn’t really a hater

I was a procrastinator, a masturbator, a fascinator

I only thought of what I need now, not later

Notice how often I said I?

You could say I was looking at the man in the mirror

Staring at myself and what was behind me always came clearer

But I couldn’t see all that was in front of me

Future, friends, and family loving me

I chose to turn my life over to my Father’s care

Now this burden is not gone but I can bear

He’s made me strong, but not perfect

I testify this fight is not easy but it’s worth it . . .